Poem 002: Since I’ve been okay…

Since I’ve been okay
My range of emotions has been stifled,
Squished down into a singularity.
Except when one bursts forth
Ripped from my breast at the speed of light
And for a moment
I’m infinite
But when I’m not
I’m numb
Since I’ve been okay.
Not quite happy, not quite content
but yes, but almost
but mostly not sad.
And unless an emotion has broken free
of this bondage of okay
It’s hollow and fleeting
A thing most easily overlooked
left behind
forgotten
Since I’ve been okay
I’ve forgotten
to feel infinite
Since I’ve been okay
I’ve forgotten to feel.

—30/3/13